Moving....

Random thoughts...

Such a big word... moving.... Moving on in life... getting older... Moving houses... upgrading from a condo to a townhouse... Moving work... so many meanings but it all cultivates to change. Change is good and it can be bad... it is just change.

We had a perfect day with perfect weather.... spent it with loved ones and spent it with friends... just chilling by the waterfront. Children laughing and playing. friends enjoying each other's company... New friends that are now old friends. A year just passes and our babies are moving into toddlerhood. Picture perfect moments of laughing moms, dads and babies. If time can stand still ... today would be a perfect night.

Yet in the still of the night... in this silence.. we ponder how time has past, how friends of yesterday past will once again regain momentum, how friends fade into the background, how old friends visit and bring back - NOTHING - yet once they could move mountains. In the past... we linger....

Long gone are the days of sweet nothings, where the focus is the club or the music where you sway and get lost in. Gone are thoes summer nights, and they are replaced with. With what? that's what I ask, what do you want to have in life? What is it that defines you...

Anger. Why do we have anger in life, why do people create anger in your life and why do you feel that you need to portray it. Why? It's not worth it and it's not worth your energy. Move onwards

Randomness

Ponderings

Admist all of the weddings and all of the happy preparations other things still penetrate our 20-something happy life. Sometimes life isn't full or roses and sometimes other things happen to our friends and family. It makes me sad that although we are in our "happy" cycle where babies, travelling, honeymoonds and weddings, new condos, new jobs, and graduations fill our lives, we need to remember that a real world is out there. Not everyone is celebrating these great and wonderous things. Although if you are, don't continue reading this blog. Maybe it's because I'm starting to come out of my bubble that I'm finally starting to realize this. Or maybe it's because my grandmother was sick in the last month and other thoughts have begun to penetrate my mind.

I recently learned that a few friends of mine have lost parents/grandparents, a few friends have lost work and a few friends have lost significant others. I look from behind my world of newness and have stopped to remember these people. Our generation keeps on going and they are strong. These people keep on laughing and they keep on with the work that they are doing. I wonder when I face these trials if I will be as strong.

I find that when I was going through my "issues" during university I have countless people that have been around for me to lean in. For me to call at my weakest moments, usually at 3 am in the morning and for someone to come over and give me a hug when I needed it the most. During the last 10 years, some of these people have moved away or have grown apart or just can't because they have to work in the morning and phone calls won't be made. I haven't had to deal with a 3 am call in a very long time, but I wonder if its just because I've grown apart from them or if work has enveloped my life that people are afraid to call.

I had once wondered why when we were growing up that my parents didn't have that many friends hanging out over our house. I've come to realize that things are coming back in full circle. We are all deep into the starts of our careers, busy with the newness of life and just busy in general. I realize that "friends" or "sex in the city" isn't real for most of us in our late 20s and early 30s. We just don't have the time like they do. Or maybe it's just me.

Been doing some soul searching lately, like most people that hit the 5 (in my case 6 year mark) of their careers. Maybe it's a symtom of being Generation X but maybe it's just a normal cycle thing. Who knows? Enough sad stuff for today! I'll see you all on the other side.

Today

You make me smile when I least expect it,

There's light at the end of this long tunnel with you smiling at it,

You make the burden feel not so heavy

Thank you for being you. All of you.

What's up with London?

So what's up with this city? What is the chance that the two places we bid on, the seller's agent has found a buyer 1 hour before we put in an offer making it a multiple offer place? This is after the place has been sitting around for 4 weeks with no offer? Seriously!

Neways feel like I'm being screwed and having to bend over backwards and getting screwed some more. My agent says that the other agents we were up against were playing games and not serving their customers properly. So the conclusion? what's up with the London agents? I'll rather play hardball in Toronto... at least it makes sense to me. What buyer won't want to get another offer on the table in order to get more money? Is it loyalty or is it their seller's agent not representing them properly? Or do they not like Asians bidding and winning their property ?

So on that note I start playing hardball again today. Seriously!

Welcome 2007

So looking back in the year it can be summed up in: Marriage, Honeymoon, New Job (with the same Company) downtown, New Condo, Dragonboat, Friends and Family and good times.

People have asked me since I've gotten married if there are many differences in my life and I must let you know there's very little except for the home factor. I now have a beautiful condo downtown, 10 minutes from work and just far enough from my parents to give me some distance. I have a great husband who cooks for me and takes care of me on a regular basis and I still have the same friends that I had last year.

The biggest change though is not coming home to the that I've slept in for 27 years and coming home to the collection of crap that has accumulated in the last 27 years. My collection of stuffed animals and my art work from Grade 7/8 that  I have hidden away and sneak a peak at from time to time somehow doesn't fit into my new grown up life. Why don't you move it with you you ask? Well it's time that I've started to grow up and leave some of these treasures at home. Yet on the other hand I can't bear to throw these memoibilia out either. I now come back to my parents house and really appreciate the mess of my old room. There's a lot of memories that have gone on there and even though I've upgrade to grown up furniture there's something nice about the familiarness of home. Somehow this marriage thing means that I'm no longer the little girl who can be more carefree anymore.

So 2007 here I come, and looking back I do not. I look forward to my trip to France, my possible trip to Asia again and many close friends getting married and moving on with there lives. I look forward to hanging out with my parents in my new grown up title and I look forward to hanging out with friends and planning different events. This year I'm sure will bring lots of changes and I will learn to embrace this new one soon enough. But mainly I'm waiting to settle into routine, something boring with a few surprises, where I know when I can go to the gym and when I can plan my week more than 3 hours at a time. It's good to finally be in control and finally not have to fix up the house anymore. Goals this Year: To learn how to golf and learn a few phrases in Mandarin and to gain some consistency at work. They say that this year is suppose to be the toughest year in my career, so hopefully I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'll see you all sparatically in the next two months, but I'll see you on the other side.